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pufferfishkisses) wrote2017-07-28 03:23 am
pufferfishkisses) wrote2017-07-28 03:23 am
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Margo's presence is so comforting. I was feeling depressed and desperate and then we cuddled for like 5 minutes and I was full of energy and hope again.
I know I have to take responsibility for my own happiness. But...still. She - no, they, pronouns - they are like a bowl of hot chicken soup on a winter day. Like drawing up a warm bath and letting the warmth sink into sore muscles.
I feel steady, solid. Not that dark cave of howling that I was for so long, that I still am, sometimes.
I know learning how to comfort myself in other ways will be beneficial to me in the months we're apart. I'll grow as a person. Which is what I want in the long run, but I can't quite say I'm looking forward to it.
I know I have to take responsibility for my own happiness. But...still. She - no, they, pronouns - they are like a bowl of hot chicken soup on a winter day. Like drawing up a warm bath and letting the warmth sink into sore muscles.
I feel steady, solid. Not that dark cave of howling that I was for so long, that I still am, sometimes.
I know learning how to comfort myself in other ways will be beneficial to me in the months we're apart. I'll grow as a person. Which is what I want in the long run, but I can't quite say I'm looking forward to it.