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Jun. 29th, 2005 04:07 pmI'm so bored. Like Mom said, "It's expected that someone your age can drive and has a job, you know. You wouldn't be so bored if you did those things too."
Yes, well. I've tried to get a job and have been unsuccessful. And nobody wants to hire me now, 6 weeks before I leave. So I feel listless and useless.
As for driving, it's not my fault Mom and Dad refused to let me learn to drive till I was 18. And I won't be 18 till August.
I feel like I'm not even part of humanity at the moment, honestly. I've been reading and watching a bit of Azumanga Daioh, but I don't feel at all useful, so I'm pretty bleurgh. This must be how people who get fired feel before they find another job. Useless.
At least I know Tracey feels that way too. But then, she's a sophomore, and isn't really expected to have a job. And she, unlike me, has friends that don't have jobs.
Yes, I'm whining. Too bad. I'm reading this book Fall Of a Kingdom, and I'm really wishing I could live in that world. When you could keep yourself busy with learning a certain trade all your life, or battling, or being a sorceress or whatever. Just do what you're good at, and by doing so, having worth to the rest of the community.
I'm really tempted, after I write my July novel, to try to sell it on Lulu.com. I'll be giving up my traditional publishing rights for that book, but you know what? It's a one-time novel with human characters, not my dragon series. And that would give me some feeling of worth, some joy--not to mention cash for college, however little.
My feet are bleeding and stinging. A lot. They're also pretty bruised. I should go tend to them, I suppose.
Tonight I should call Mr. Movies and Colleen. I really shouldn't be putting these things off.
Yes, well. I've tried to get a job and have been unsuccessful. And nobody wants to hire me now, 6 weeks before I leave. So I feel listless and useless.
As for driving, it's not my fault Mom and Dad refused to let me learn to drive till I was 18. And I won't be 18 till August.
I feel like I'm not even part of humanity at the moment, honestly. I've been reading and watching a bit of Azumanga Daioh, but I don't feel at all useful, so I'm pretty bleurgh. This must be how people who get fired feel before they find another job. Useless.
At least I know Tracey feels that way too. But then, she's a sophomore, and isn't really expected to have a job. And she, unlike me, has friends that don't have jobs.
Yes, I'm whining. Too bad. I'm reading this book Fall Of a Kingdom, and I'm really wishing I could live in that world. When you could keep yourself busy with learning a certain trade all your life, or battling, or being a sorceress or whatever. Just do what you're good at, and by doing so, having worth to the rest of the community.
I'm really tempted, after I write my July novel, to try to sell it on Lulu.com. I'll be giving up my traditional publishing rights for that book, but you know what? It's a one-time novel with human characters, not my dragon series. And that would give me some feeling of worth, some joy--not to mention cash for college, however little.
My feet are bleeding and stinging. A lot. They're also pretty bruised. I should go tend to them, I suppose.
Tonight I should call Mr. Movies and Colleen. I really shouldn't be putting these things off.
